'I was in a dark place - I thought about it every single day for two years. I blamed myself'
Paddy Brennan tells Stuart Riley about his lowest moment as a jockey and desperation for one more big Cheltenham moment
If you want to get to know Paddy Brennan, all you need to do is visit his downstairs loo.
Hung above the cistern, between pictures of his mud-splattered face and a stylish black and white photo of him suited and booted in the Fontwell weighing room with several of his colleagues you'd have to assume double as close friends, is a framed print titled "Paddy loves . . ."
Some of it needs no explanation. His wife Lindsey tops the list, the only entry more important than "winning races" – naturally. "Horses", his Ryanair and Gold Cup winner Imperial Commander gets a namecheck, as does his home county of Galway. "Friends and family" and "farm" are unsurprising entries, while "his iPad" raises a chuckle.
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